My identity

I have a somewhat unusual racial admixture, which has probably contributed to my inability to fit in with any culture. I typically avoid speaking about it because it sounds made up. I will give the full story:

My grandfather is Iranian and moved to the US to study in the 1950s, at a time when there were very few foreigners. There was a group of Iranian Bahais in the US who helped him get here. It was not his original plan but he went to school in a community college in a small town in the middle of rural USA. They gave him a scholarship because the dean of that college wanted a foreign student and at that time there were none. They wrote an article about him in the town's newspaper, putting his picture on the front page. And on that newspaper my grandmother who was just a teenager saw his face for the first time. She was a descendant of soldiers who fought in the American revolution, and of Confederate soldiers in the Civil War. My grandfather and grandfather ended up meeting in person, marrying, and having 5 kids.

Then one of their children, my mother, married an Iranian Bahai man and I was their child.

This makes my ethnicity 75% Iranian Baha'i and 25% White American.

So what is my identity? This is an important question because I need an identity because women want a man with an identity, a group he is part of, not an oddball lone wolf. I look Iranian, and the Iranian Bahai identity worked well for my father and grandfather, so the obvious choice would seem to be that I should make my identity Iranian Baha'i.

It does not work for me however, because the Baha'i community today is a joke. I have written about this before so I will not go into details.

So the Baha'i identity sucks, so what is my fallback identity? Naively one might say White American, since I grew up in America, speak with an American accent, went to schools alongside white American children, raised by a mother who looks like a White American, and half my family members look like white Americans. But the issue is white Americans are racist in a looks-based way, so a non white looking person will not really fit into white society as easily as a white person would fit into, say, Iranian Baha'i society. My father and grandfather did not get their wives by fitting into white society, instead they brought their wives into Iranian Baha'i society. I think if they went to churches and acted like fake white guys, they would have been laughed at and no women would have wanted them.

So I can't have the identity of being an Iranian Baha'i because it is a collapsing culture so the Iranian Baha'i identity will get me nowhere. And I can't have the white American identity because even though I have some racial and cultural similarity to whites, they do not see me as being one of them (just as they do not see American blacks as being one of them, and American blacks on average have a similar amount of Northern European DNA as me).

Being a white/brown man is easier in America than being a yellow man

Indians are the race American women are most repulsed by and I look Indian to most people. This is a social death sentence in the USA.

Most women view East Asians as being eunuchs. They are not threatened by them, so they are at least willing to make friends with an Asian. And this way an Asian can at least make female friends and become comfortable talking to women. This can pay off later on.

But if you look Indian, then women will attribute whatever negative stereotypes are associated with Indians to you, and therefore they will actively avoid you, and hate you. They give you nasty looks as you walk by them down the streets, and if you have the slightest social interaction with them, they will give you a look as if to say "fuck off" or "don't talk to me". The very last thing women want is to become involved with Indians or Indian culture, because they view it as a disgusting culture. As a result, if you look Indian and live in the USA then women are simply absent from your life.

So I would say it's easier to be Asian. In fact, I think it is easier to be Asian than Eurasian because for someone like Elliot Rodger the "Eunuch Effect" is gone.

Speaking as a yellow man my experiences are actually very contrary to what you claim

In fact the only group of western women who were not threatened by me and immediately sees me as predatory are a small subset of black women

Despite the fact they gave the worst reputation I actually had very good experiences with black women.

Other Asian and white women sees me as uncivil and “barbaric” ie I am a strong man and I don’t look like an androgynous Kpop star.

I was actually just thinking about black women yesterday, and why I don't get as nervous talking to them as other races, and why I am able to have ordinary social interactions with them. I think the "Eunuch Effect" explains this. Typically, black men are extremely manly and dripping with testosterone, and this is what black women are used to, so they view all non-black men as eunuchs in comparison. And hence they are not afraid to have a conversation with them.

I will backtrack on what I said about American women in general viewing Asians as eunuchs. I acknowledge this only applies for a certain type of Asian look.

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Of course you do and it has nothing to do with being attracted to the same race. All races are attracted to whites because the world is under the influence of white culture and therefore the world has a hardon for whites. Everyone wants to become romantically involved with a white, whether they are Asian, Indian, Middle Eastern. And now that media is as ubiquitous as it is, this just helps strengthen the world's sexual preference for whites, by repeatedly exposing people to faces of attractive white actors and models.

This preference for whites is toxic, because whites are the most garbage people on the planet. They are the scum of the earth. They shouldn't be given this sexual power. They don't deserve it. Instead they should be humiliated. Instead they should perish, because whites are truly shit. I truly hope a plague strikes the planet, affecting only whites, and annihilates them all.

I am not sure what the whole “eununch” stuff you keep going on about

From my own personal experiences a certain selective group of black women are the only “good” western women I have ever encountered IE over all pleasantness tolerability and just over all niceness.

For women, a Baha'i identity should work well for Baha'i women outside of America.  There is no reason to date women in America since they are almost all degenerate.

You are what you are, no point in denying it. Best to just leave America and find a wife abroad.